This is a video we showed at South Bay this past Sunday as Andy taught about peace. I hope it encourages you to trust God, even with the painful and difficult circumstances in your life.
I wrote the following letter back in March. I debated whether or not to post it because it is so personal. But I know there are so many women who have experienced this, so I just wanted to give you a glimpse into my heart.
I think about you everyday.
I love you as if you were already in my arms.
I imagine what you will look like~ the color of your hair & eyes.
You are apart of my heart, a missing part of our family.
Every month I hope for you. I have dreams about you. I calculate when your birthday will be and how old your big brother will be when you come.
As hard as I try not to hope for you, I still hope every month...
I'll keep praying for you. And I will wait.
The incomprehensible bond between my heart and yours exists even before you do. The mystery of motherhood.
One day I will hold you.
And I will kiss your face and stare at your every feature, trying to memorize each expression.
So today, we cannot cuddle in the rocking chair or stroll together outside. I can't watch you discover your hands for the first time or listen to you breathe. But one day we will.
And until then, I want you to know that long before you are...you are wanted.